December 27, 2012

• I never planned on you changing your mind

  

  I want you to know that I love you. I never did stop, not for one gasping second. My love for you is unconditional and it will never end as long as I live. I refuse to find others when I have the one I want. I never doubted us, but you did. I never stopped thinking about you even though you stopped thinking about me. I never wanted to let go, but you did.

  
  

  The things we crave the most, destroy us the quickest.

  
  

  Who you are is who you are. We’re liars. We’re thieves. We’re addicts. We take our happiness for granted until we hurt ourselves or someone else. We hold grudges. And when faced with our mistakes, we reinvent the past. We reinvent ourselves. At least we try. We’re prideful, and we’re lustful, and we’re incredibly flawed. And eventually, our flaws catch up to us.

  
  

  There are going to be times in your life when all you want to do is lay down in the middle of the road during rush hour. Just know that no matter how many times you feel like laying there, I will always be there to stop traffic.

  
  

  Sometimes if you really want to make things work you have to keep you mouth shut and put your hurt aside.

  
  

  We are all looking for answers. In medicine, in life, in everything. Sometimes the answers we were looking for were hiding just below the surface. Other times, we find answers when we didn’t realize we were asking a question. Sometimes, the answers can catch us completely by surprise. And sometimes, even when we find the answer we’ve been looking for, we’re still left with a whole helluva lot of questions.

  
  

  I believed everything that you said, every single word that came out of your mouth. I thought it would be different this time, even though my friends said otherwise. I truly believed that this time it would work. I would finally be with someone who’s not an asshole. But then what did you do? You proved me wrong, you showed me that you were just another silly boy who doesn’t know what the fuck he wants.

  
  

  You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn’t seem to work. And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.

  
  

  I can feel my heart trembling to pieces every second of every day since you left. I’m so sick of getting hurt like this, i think its time for me to have something real, but im not sure if i believe in love anymore.

  
  
  

  What was the point of being able to forgive, when deep down, you both had to admit you’d never forget?

  
  

  Maybe instead of thinking you know everything, let go of your ego for a while and you’d start to get to know her. And maybe if you threw away your fears of getting hurt and just loved her, maybe you two could make it.

  
  

  If you’ve ever had one of those times when you’ve clutched a pen or something else in your hand for a long time, only to look down and be surprised that you are still holding it long after your need for it had passed, you’ll understand sometimes we get so use to holding that we forget to let go.

  
  

  You are going to lose people in your life. & I realize that no matter how much time you spent with them, or how much you appreciated them and told them so, it will never seem like it was enough.

  
  

  I think your heart grows back bigger. You know.. once it gets the shit beaten out of it.

  
  

  Sometimes the people who are always there for you, are the ones who need you the most.

  
  

  No matter what happens i just have to pick up my pieces and keep moving forward.

  
  

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