January 17, 2013

• We all just want to be big rockstars

  

  You shouldn’t have to sacrifice who you are just because someone has a problem with it.

  
  

  To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever. You don’t get over it because ‘it’ is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made anodyne by death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no-one else can fit it. Why would I want them to?

  
  

  You take me by the heart, when you take me by the hand.

  
  

  Thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time.

  
  

  I’m waiting for the day when you realize what you gave up on.

  
  

  I’ve accepted that we can’t be but I’ve also accepted that you’re going to be that one person I carry with me for the rest of my life, the one who is always going to make my heart jump a little and my stomach tie up in knots. No matter how happy I am otherwise and no matter how long it’s been. The one I will always wish had secretly asked me to the dance even though I’m happier with the guy that did. Do you realize how incredibly difficult it is to accept both those things at once?

  
  

  Once you can laugh at your own weaknesses, you can move forward. Comedy breaks down walls. It opens up people. If you’re good, you can fill up those openings with something positive. Maybe… combat some of the ugliness in the world.

  
  

  Reality is becoming much too real.

  
  

  Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, then it’s not the end.

  
  

  I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next.

  
  

  Everything happens for a reason. that’s what we hear after every heartbreak, failure, loss, dilemma, misfortune… when we’re in a stressful situation, or when we can’t rest and all we can do is worry. there’s a part of me that believes this saying, and trusts in it. i guess that’s because i’m a romanticist. but then i’m a realist. do we just tell ourselves that everything happens for a reason to make ourselves feel better about our situation? if everything happened for a reason then why are there so many things weighing down my head, putting doubts in my mind. the fact of the matter is, it does make us feel better. it makes us feel like our heartache won’t last forever and in the end there is something better.

  
  

  You don’t understand me, you never tried to anyways.

  
  

  You know, she really did love you more than anyone else, but you just let her walk into your life and walk right back out. Boy, you missed your chance because nobody will ever love you like that girl did. So go get yourself screwed over by one of those sluts who have a new boyfriend every week, because that girl doesn’t care anymore.

  
  

  After all, how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating?

  
  

  The only thing standing between me and total happiness is reality.

  
  

  When we were little, life worked perfectly. No matter what happened, everything turned out alright in the end. Scraped knees, canceled play dates, dropped ice cream cones– we would cry for a short time, but by the end of the day, everything would be perfect. And now as we’ve grown older, we’ve lost the faith as we stumble through each day, crying over broken hearts, lost friendships, and lost dreams. It seems like life and perfection have turned their backs on us, but really its just that we’ve grown up. As children we didn’t pay attention to such details about our daily lives, but now we are more aware, and little details seem to be amplifying our pain. But just remember that when we were younger, life was hard too, but we had faith in perfection because we could look past faults. So don’t lose your faith. Learn to know that each day will pass, each heartache will be mended, and everything will be perfect in the end. Just keep your faith.

  
  

  It’s time to let go of the fairytale, and welcome the reality.

  
  

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