February 11, 2013

• You’re lovely

  

  I can’t believe you just walked out on me. After everything we’ve been through, you just gave up.

  
  

  You’ve got to learn to push through the hard times, because you have to face them. Running from them now, will only make you too tired to fight through when they catch up to you later.

  
  

  When you’re struggling with something, look over at the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it’s just as hard as what you’re going through.

  
  

  I hate being alone. I admit it. I’m clingy and constantly crave the attention of those who seem so well off and perfect. It’s terrible because we really shouldn’t depend on anybody but ourselves. I put up such a strong facade, nobody would believe I could ever be sad or alone. I’ve worked hard to achieve that status and even harder to keep reassuring people it’s real. But sometimes I wish everyone would know. I am not perfect. Not even close. I feel like a nobody most of the time. And the only thing worse than being alone is feeling alone with everybody beside you.

  
  

  Beautiful – That is a word you give a definition to. You are beautiful. Everything about you is beautiful. Your heart, your face, your body, your soul, and everything about you is beautiful. If someone says your not, they’re crazy. But don’t believe them because there are thousands admiring your beauty. Always remember that lovely. Stay beautiful.

  
  

  At this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don’t notice, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has. People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and the more we grow the less sense it will make. So make the most of it now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories.

  
  

  You know what I think we are most afraid of? Not knowing. Not knowing whether it’s all really worth it. Not knowing if you should give up or keep fighting. Not knowing why you do the things you do; not knowing the purpose. It’s like when you’re little and you touch the stove and get burned, because you didn’t really know that it was hot. Not knowing has always hurt us, from the very beginning.

  
  

  So this is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. You do things you used to be against, you date the people you never thought you would and you befriend people you used to hate. You’ll learn what it’s like to have your heartbroken, to lose a friend that truly meant something to you, and feel as if everything is really falling apart. There will be times that your life seems so horrible it feels like it’s not real. Despite all this, good things will come too. You’ll make the most amazing friends that will be there for you even when they probably shouldn’t. Your broken heart will heal once you find the most perfect guy you’ve ever met and just as nothing else can go wrong, things will only get better. There will be the days you are so happy and the days you feel like dying. Drama happens, gossip goes around and people talk shit. Maybe this is just the teenage years, or maybe it’s life. Or maybe; it’s just growing up.

  
  

  People don’t understand the impact they make on others. If they did, I’m sure they would be a lot nicer to each other.

  
  

  There’s a lot I don’t understand. But I do know it’s important to keep fighting. I learned that from you. We never win. Never will. That’s not why we fight. We do it because there’s things worth fighting for.

  
  

  Our greatest fear is the fear of not being good enough for someone. Our insecurities fill us with doubt which fuel our paranoid excuses of misery. All we want to do is satisfy and be loved, not being able to meet those criteria makes us feel worthless, and pathetic. However, once we overcome these obstacles, anything is possible within a relationship.

  
  

  Sometimes in life, things get messed up. People over think, over analyze, and assume. It’s human nature though. We aren’t perfect and I’m learning that more and more each day. Everybody’s beautiful, everybody’s flawed, and everybody deserves second chances. I don’t care what you did, how bad you did it or anything. Sometimes we just weren’t ready to make it right the first time. We’re only human, remember that.

  
  

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