January 11, 2013

• You lost out

  

  Don’t flatter yourself, you’re easy, he’s desperate.

  
  

  I’m sorry I ever tried. I was a fool to have hope in you.

  
  

  It turns out, you can’t save people from themselves.

  
  

  But the truth is if I could be with anyone, it’d still be you.

  
  

  You know, sometimes we make decisions about our life and they feel like the right decision at the time. No, they are the right decisions at the time. But that doesn’t mean they’ll be right decisions forever, and you know what I’ve realized as I’ve gotten older? There isn’t a definite right and wrong anyway. Sometimes we do what seems wrong but we have good reasons for doing it so it’s not so wrong after all.

  
  

  The thing is, we say these things now. And, we know how crazy it is to be talking about a forever together, when we don’t know what tomorrow holds. The thing about these high-school relationships is, even through all the uncertainty, is even then there’s that one person you mean it to. You mean it more then you ever meant it before. And, even though deep down, you feel so special, you know it’s all cliché. You know people have been fooled before. You know people have been wrong before but you don’t care. It feels real. It is. For now. And the things is, it changes you. It really does.

  
  

  I’m doing fine. Just sometimes I think of you. Like when I roll over and you’re not there. Or a stranger’s hand brushes mine. Or a fleeting memory photographed in my mind pops up. Those are the worst. That’s when I can smell you, feel you. It’s crippling really. But I’m fine.

  
  

  Even ten years and twenty boys later, I’m still going to have a little thing for you, because some things never change.

  
  

  Sometimes you have to forget what you want, and remember what you deserve.

  
  

  It’s amazing how you can keep so much bottled up inside of you and you can just walk around and nobody has any idea.

  
  

  In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what you have the, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.

  
  

  It’s better to burn out then fade away.

  
  

  If I’ve learned anything in life, it is that sometimes things get in your path and you have a choice: you can either smash right into them, or you can adjust and move around,but you have to do one or the other in order to move forward.

  
  

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